Sleepless in Clearfield

It's no secret that I have horrible sleeping habits.  Anyone who trys to call me before the crack of noon knows that.  And it just so happens that the good Lord sent me a child who sleeps for 10-12 hours a night.  Things in our home have been pretty buggered up as far as schedules and routines go, at least for us adults, for last several months.  With my new calling and my recent decision to do both a play and a choir this summer my some days tend to be swamped and a lot of what I'm doing right now means leaving Luke with Casey.  Well, he's pretty upset about that.  He's been my #1 focus since the day I knew he was coming and he hasn't adjusted to my absences quite yet.

At first, Luke would bawl when I left and then be mad for about 5 minutes when I got home but now he's attempting to fuse himself to my hip.  He still cries when I leave and now he's decided that he won't go to bed without me at the very least in the room.  The first night I thought, he's upset and what will one time hurt to just hold him until he falls asleep?  The problem came when I started thinking that every night.  I just feel so guilty for being away so much more than we're used to.

Well now I have a little boy who is up til all hours screaming for his mom and banging on the door.  When he finally falls asleep it's only for a few hours and then he's up for several more hours playing the "I'm hungry" card(more guilt).  Needless to say, I've not had much sleep in the past two weeks.  Yes, yes I know I helped create this ugly monster of a problem but gosh darnit he breaks my heart with those cries!  Tonight he went down a little late but without a fight.  Here's hoping he stays asleep.