My Weight Challenges

I used to be REALLY good at telling lies.  For some reason, the older I get the more terrible I become at it.  So then, I must admit- I have not had a good workout since Luke was born.  Which is part of why the condition of my body continues to deteriorate and I am left with a terrible self image and a terrible sense of self worth.  So I decided enough is enough!

I don't remember how to restrain myself.  Honestly.  I don't remember how to make my portions smaller and deal with the hunger, or eat healthier things even if everyone else isn't, or work out even though it's boring and it hurts and my asthma tries to kill me.  I used to do it all the time, so I know that I knew how to at some point-I just don't remember now.  Most of all, I don't remember how to have self discipline when it comes to managing my weight.  If I want an entire candy bar-why can't I have it?  Gee I don't know, why don't you ask those massive love handles you have.  They can consult with my massive gut and get back to me on that one.

But today-a break through!  My first real workout!  Casey said, "I have to stay in shape for school.  Do you want to go run with me today Beck?"  It must have been divine intervention because what came out of my mouth was, "Why yes, yes I do want to go."  And voila!  I walked/ran a mile, and then paced around the playground and watched Luke play while Casey finished his 3 miles.  I kicked my butt, but I think it's a start!  Here's hoping I can keep the momentum building!